We met with our small groups for the third time this week and even though we are still getting to know one another, we got into some really good discussion this week concerning prayer. I left our little meeting feeling so encouraged to have such an incredible group of young women encouraging me, teaching me, and struggling right along with me. We have had some pretty mind blowing speakers that have spoken on incredible topics, but I left our group feeling completely mind blown and in awe of the immensity of all that God is. I am a very type A personality so not being able to understand something is very VERY frustrating to me, so a lot of times I get really frustrated when trying to wrap my mind around God because I just feel so confused and frazzled because my mind is trying to go a million different directions. So, as I was venting my frustration to my small group, they graciously listened, and then one girl shared the most relieving verse. It was 1 Corinthians 14:33 which says “For God is not a God of confusion but of peace.” So essentially, my confusion and frazzled mind were not of the Lord. He doesn’t want us to be confused or upset by the fact that we will never be able to completely understand him, but rather that fact should make us stand in awe of Him so much more. God is seriously so indescribable that our mind, the most incredible complex supercomputer ever made, could not contain all the knowledge of who, how, and what he is. If we tried to contain all that, our minds would literally be blown.
So, next time I begin to feel frustrated with my inability to understand God, I’m gonna take a step back, and just rest in His peace rather than my confusion. Standing in awe of him is so much more enjoyable than sitting in misunderstanding.
So, next time I begin to feel frustrated with my inability to understand God, I’m gonna take a step back, and just rest in His peace rather than my confusion. Standing in awe of him is so much more enjoyable than sitting in misunderstanding.